The Love Of My Life

Nigel - my husband, my love, my best friend.

He is sick right now, in hospital recovering from heart surgery. Turns out his heart stops beating and he needed a pace maker. The situation of course is not a good thing, but the pace maker will be a good thing for him as it will ensure his heart will never beat below 60 beats per minute. (If it does, the pace maker will beat his heart for him.) He will be off work for up to three months now recovering. He won't be able to lift or move around much which will begin to annoy him to no end, I'm sure of it! Whats strange is that he is 30 years old, lives a healthy life, exercises everyday, non smoker, occasional light drinker. There are people out there who live totally irresponsible lives and never have these problems.

It's been hard for me these past few days. I couldn't bare to be without him and I am so thankful to God for looking after him all this time and finally giving us an answer.

Nigel said to me this morning "I am excited" I replied "What for?" and he said "The future. I no longer need to live in fear" and that just sums it up for me. Him saying that made everything seem right. It's true. No more fear.